a + c palmer

Your mom and I are so excited to meet you. Honestly, we can not wait. Well, we can, just it is really tough. It feels like everything else is on pause until we can hold you in our arms. It’s difficult to focus on anything else until we can meet you.

Waiting is tough. The more we wait, the slower time passes, the longer it feels we are waiting. You can bend time with your mind. Time is flexible; it’s not as rigid as the clock-keepers would lead you to believe.

While we wait, there are few things that put my mind at ease. You will learn that I am not the best at sitting idle. I prefer to be productive, to be learning, or to be conversing with others. Your mom is helping me with this and I’m working on it.

You are already helping teach me how to be more present, to relax, and to enjoy the moment. My default is to try and distract myself from the anxiety, anticipation, and excitement. I have been able to ground myself in the present moment a lot more recently. I am thinking about my presence, on my feelings, and reflecting on the happenings around me. Becoming aware is the first step. You are already helping me bring myself into closer alignment with the present moment. Thank you for this gift.

Last year, I received a fortune cookie with the text: You find beauty in ordinary things. I saved that fortune in my wallet for the longest time, hoping it would one day come in handy. Now, I’m attempting to harness this philosophy…

I find beauty in watching you grow and watching your mom evolve into a mother.

I find beauty in learning from others’ experiences.

I find beauty in the gestational process of humans and the events that lead up to us meeting you.

I find beauty in trusting that you will come meet us when you are ready.

I find beauty in waiting.

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